may horoscopes: freedom in failure
letting go
dear reader,
How are you doing? How are you holding up?
Over the last two weeks, there’s been a lot of movement. Eclipses are often a window of fate. Sometimes you begin new projects or meet new people who will play a big part in the next six months and beyond. Other times, you go through a conflict, crisis, storm. People (or you!) act uncharacteristically, and you must deal with the fallout.
Mercury has also been retrograde, and things have been a little loopy since mid-April. This retrograde especially has had a lot to do with editing past projects and with paying attention to what’s been left unsaid.
The month starts off with received insight on the tangible steps ahead for your projects and gaining understanding of the subtext of your situation.
One of the biggest moments of the month is the Scorpio Lunar Eclipse on the 5th. It’s conjoined Uranus, the planet of surprise and upsets, and Venus also sextiles Jupiter and squares Neptune around this time too. We’ll be dealing with an excess of feeling.
This eclipse unclogs the drain.
You may have an idea of what’s ideal. Where you want to be, how you want to feel. Maybe the ideal “you” doesn’t have anxiety, doesn’t lash out, is always grounded. Maybe the ideal you is more in the fantasy realm, is a new version of you that will never bring you shame or embarrassment.
But I think this eclipse will juxtapose the fullness of your desire with the weakness that we all hold within. There is potential for healing, but it may not feel good. In fact the road ahead might seem quite long.
To get more insight about the month, I pulled some tarot cards and got The Star and The 10 of Pentacles. The Star is a card that generally means hope, but because it comes after The Tower, i.e. after crisis and rock bottom, it is a place of failure. We finally landed on the ground post-event.
Failure is a place of freedom. Freedom to imagine and the freedom to not know. We are exploring this freedom this month. When we build new worlds and create projects, we are not doing things we already know. But we may have a general sense of a desired end-goal. If that desire is something that is tethered to past versions of us or societally prescribed, it plants a chimera that we sculpt rigorously with our hands on our side of reality.
But this month, we’ll have to displant the chimera. The multivalent side of this sculpture we are building comes into view. We don’t just create from an ideal design, we also react to things in relation to our time, our community, and our own limitations. What we want to make has its own weight and volume.
This month we’ll understand how to engage in the world separate from an idealism and desire for how things to be.
Jupiter enters Taurus, and the Ten of Pentacles message is here. We must stay present. We move at the pace of things. And we understand that, our desire is so powerful, so be careful what you wish for.
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horoscopes ( read for your rising sign!)
Taurus:
Big month for you. Early month is uncomfortable, and you may have to deal with some unsavory characters. You’re releasing a relationship. But after Jupiter enters Taurus on the 16th, you begin the act of rebuilding your self.
Gemini
I’d be conscious of your health and piling your schedule on too much this month. Be careful of what you eat and your digestive system in general. There will also be a lot of focus on hibernation, healing, and inner reflection with Jupiter’s entry into your 12th house.
Cancer
You’re letting go of a certain aspect of pleasure or play this month. It may feel like everything is drab for a bit. But no worries, once we head into the end of the month, you’ll be feeling the power of your beauty and your dreams. You just need to move through some drainage first.
Leo
This month is big in your home and work life. Home may feel especially unsettled. You want a place to rest, as you’re pulled forward in many directions in your public life. As we head into the end of the month, there may be some interpersonal conflict that requires you to be the best mediator you can be. You need to make sure you are grounded and aligned to your values to be able to adjudicate properly.
Virgo
Communication and kinship are strained early month. You need to purge and allow the negative feelings to fester for a certain amount of time, especially since Mercury doesn’t turn direct until May 14 and Jupiter enters Taurus on the 16th, effectively allowing your bigger visions to lift you out of the funk. You’ll have new ideas and adventures to embark on end of month.
Libra
The ground you’re on feels a bit shaky, and maybe you’re worried how you will support yourself. This month shines the light on the collective resources you have access to. It may feel uncertain, but you’ll be strengthening your skills of reliance, trust, and interdependence.
Scorpio
This is a lay-low and observe kind of month. There will be a bit of action in your career this month that is part of a longer story this summer, but otherwise for most of this time, you are focused on straightening out the relationships in your life and releasing stagnated parts of yourself.
Sagittarius
This month may contain some more difficult moments for you. You may have to struggle with some darker feelings you have suppressed, self-sabotage, or unsavory characters from your past. The world might feel a little spooky during these few weeks, but if you can keep your head up, you’ll be able to move forward with inner strength and you’ll be able to be focused on how to set up the healthiest life possible for you.
Capricorn
You’re releasing a lot. It’s not a moment necessarily of growth, and maybe one dream or a few may have to be shattered. But what’s let go gives room for new conceptions and imaginations. Once you get past the toughness of the early month, you’ll begin the job of planting new seeds. Don’t be too hard on yourself.
Aquarius
Your authority may be challenged this month. You might have to take a step back or see where things might have gone wrong. Watch out if your scarcity complex especially gets triggered during this month. Even if you have to retreat, you’re not going to disappear.
Pisces
This month you might feel a bit caged in and your confidence a little low. Since Saturn’s moved into your first, you may feel a certain grind up to your ears. It may be your own messaging or external circumstances, but this month you’ll have to get clear on how you are reformatting your life to become the person you want to be.
Aries
Your home life is blossoming and spiky. The energy abounds. If you’re investigating your heritage, familial bonds, home space, it will be even more a focus this month. But things might not feel smooth. Perhaps a contract will fall through, or you’ll suffer another type of betrayal, but in the end, you’ll realize what conflicts you keep trying to reenact to feel a sense of agency.